been a while Lyrics

So many changes

Conquering all my demons and I'm letting in my angels

Rickita told me: better watch out for these strangers

Mama said same things once

Those closest to you: the most dangerous

I been anxious

Fake exchanges

Temporary arrangements

Incendiary language

Fuck being rich and famous

They know who my name is

I swear in my life I been through more shit than an anus

I ain't with the games, bitch

Niggas on the same shit

No wonder they complacent

I'm bout to lose my patience

I was struggling to pay these bills and she was on vacation

But it's my fault for being passive aggressive, wasn't saying shit

I done seen the mountaintops and I done crawled through to hell

Talking more to demons cause God ain't got a cell

Couldn't hold the tears back when I was sitting in the jail

1AM no one answering the phone, I'm by myself

Used my last bit of funds just to post some bail

I try my hardest but it seem every time I fucking fail

I question all my steps

I'm scared to ask for help

People act strange when you coming out your shell

I'm scared for my future, a little worried bout my health

I know things ain't quite right, I knew my girl could kind of tell

Probably why I been so focused on trying to build this wealth

Stains on concrete marking where my tears fell

Stop showing all your feelings dude, remember you a male

Dear God, how many times I got to take L

Fell asleep up at the wheel

Caught with a gun, weed, and a scale

How did I fall off up off the trail?

Unresponsive I went pale

Not sure if I'm religious, superstitious, or spiritual

I know I believe in something because I done seen some miracles

Pulled back from people close

Barely even speak no more

Went a week without no heat

Why would you leave when I need you most

The light up in the dark

Can't have fire without no spark

Many fish are in the sea

But you need to watch for sharks

With this hole up in my heart

Feeling like I am Tony Stark

Making sure I leave my Mark

Telling few what's going on cause they'll talk

Got it hand to me girl like your favorite nail spot

Can't believe she left my fucking key up in the mailbox

Left a couple things but she still took my damn heart

Thought we would fly high but got lost, Amelia Earhart

Took the knives up out my back but still can't help these damn scars

In just a week of time

Seen my mother cry

Four family members die

Along with three friends of mine, used to smoke, drink, get high

Girlfriend hospitalized

Had my feelings minimized

Then took a ten hour drive

Sleep deprived

Jail, walked some miles

Forty-three degrees, then I slept outside

Came home to no lights

Guess it is a lonely night

What the fuck? Why I'm crying?

When it rain it pours, no sunshine

Wish I had started up a bloodline

Was gonna work for a love life

Fuck that, I got to slide

I'm gone die for mine

Know it all sounds like a fantasy to a simple mind

Head always up but sometimes

Looking down like what a climb

Making money off of rhymes

Reading charts and plotting lines

One of one, one of a kind

Thinking: damn, what a ride

Knowing that them niggas lied

Knowing that them bitches tried

I know them bitches tried

(I bet they wonder why?)

How could you block me when I was there when you wanted committed suicide

Remember you said: it was do or die

Now you choosing guys

Who ain't ever seen your ruined times

Now you blocking me off of pride

Now you watching me from the side

Remember how you felt when we locked eyes

Imagined you as my bride

Do I need to remind

Who the one who lied

Who the one who hide

Fucking up the vibes

Know it's been some time

But you still on mind

Getting drunk day and night

Liver problems, see the signs

Feel like Chadwick with the acting

Everything is all fine (All Fine)

What goes up, will always come down

And whatever goes down must always have a bounce

Don't worry about the miss, go after the rebound

Then stunt on all the ones who questioned or gave you doubt

Stand up for what you believe in and make sure you say it loud

I love to hear my parents tell me that they say "they're proud".

I love to hear the words "I love you", it's my favorite sound

I believe in Karma; what goes around, come around

I'm the tally mark, best believe I make it count

Her water park the type to make a nigga want to drown

Just like this verse, I been going through a beat a while

I believe in love whenever I look into her eyes

I believe in trust whenever I see my Mama smile

I believe in luck if ever get a wife and child

I'm the number that they dial

When shit is getting wild

I know miss me or gone miss me

Cause I know it's been a while

I guess this just gone have to be, like, the outro or something

Journey of The Kid

We fine

The Balloon that always keep rising

I ain't giving up over here, ok?

And that means you shouldn't give up either

We keep fucking going

Love y'all

The Kid Was Here

Silas