Heavy Lyrics

I'm not ready, my thought's heavy, my heart's weak, but brain's a freak

Got issues plenty, should get tested clinically

I think I have borderline split personality

Coupled with I guess ADHD, Anxiety

Attacks are really bad, I'm praying I don't panic

Cuz if I cross the line, there could be more damage

If only I could, overcome my fear damn it

I wouldn't have had to, pick this mic and start ranting

Pen to pad I try to jot down every thought I have

But, all of them are dark so my pages they keep turning black

I try to tackle every fucking issue that I ever had

My sin of attention is pushing me to the stage, so now I rap

Heavy

My mind is always

Heavy

On the inside I feel

Empty

My mind is always

Heavy, Heavy, Heavy

I'm trying to get my life on track, now Karma's catching up

Every bad decision I made, now I think I am out of luck

Overconfidence fucks me over, but I still can't overcome

I try to see the bright side! Optimistic? No, delusional!

Every night I go to bed, I lie under the sheets

Over thinking at its peak, on Everest, thirty thousand feet

It's really cold, I'm on my own, I feel alone and weak

A nervous breakdown up my spine, it sneakily, tries to creep

Got responsibilities, I can't let go and rest

Insecurities feel like spiders, I am in a web

Hanging on to sanity, with a rope around my neck

Somebody please tell me how will, I escape my head?

(Aagghh!)

Heavy

My mind is always

Heavy

On the inside I feel

Empty

My mind is always

Heavy, Heavy, Heavy

My feelings aren't inane, but I might just be insane

I'm tired of these issues, I'm tired of running away

But they've been embedded in me, since a young age

So I'ma stand up to them, address 'em like a mail

Toxic masculinity is in my pocket, in my jeans

I even tried bleach, but I, still can't get it cleaned

I cage my emotions, then I, shove them in deep

Hence, When I'm on the mic you, only get a peek

You just say my heart is cold, my EQ is low

But you fuckers don't know, what I had to go through to become someone with no

Conscience or remorse, no, I ain't got no remote

I dump a bitch and you, there to stick a fork, cuz bitch you like to poke

Heavy

My mind is always

Heavy

On the inside I feel

Empty

My mind is always

Heavy, Heavy, Heavy

Heavy

My mind is always

Heavy

On the inside I feel

Empty

My mind is always

Heavy, Heavy, Heavy