Drug Addict Lyrics

Did you really love me

Or were you chasing clout

Yeah you coulda been gay

But you seem kinda straightened out

You made me feel safe

You made me feel secure

But none of this prepared me for

The pain that i endured

No one got to know you

The way i did

And i blame what you when through

Since when you were a kid

It's not an excuse

Cause that's not really fair

Yeah You made me feel like shit

When i was already there

I needed reassurance

I was always scared

But it's not MY fault your soul

Has the complexion of your hair

When we first got together

I couldn't help but stare

But the blinking was what i needed

I was never aware

When we broke up

I stopped my medication

Me with no meds

That's a dangerous creation

You can blame it on me

We know its not your fault

I assumed you were sugar

But you sodium, you salt

Uh

You sounded better when you weren't talking

I needed you to hold me down

you got up and started walking

Everything was good

Till you took a plane

Its like you kinda washed me out

Like an ugly stain

And we never talked again

When you got back

But i was your only friend

So explain that

Nah cause I'm Just kidding

we were never friends

Cause you kept me a secret

Till the very end

I'm a drug addict

I'm a drug addict

I'm a drug addict

And I'm still addicted to you

The power you have over me

Was God gifted to you

When you first flew away

Something shifted I knew

We were fallin' out of love

I couldn't see a way through

You made me feel like

No one else before

Baby You were my window

When god was closing my door

There was a small time

That I couldn't ask for more

But then it all changed

Cause you turned into a… chore

I really needed you

Down on my knees

I had to plead you

That you would never leave

But you broke my heart

And you never returned

But I'm still addicted to you

Like the marijuana that I burn

I'm a drug addict

I'm a drug addict

I'm a drug addict

Did you really love me

I'll never really know

Your parents never met me

Cause my skin wasn't like snow

And you never really kissed me

Cause you said that you forgot

I tried to earn your kindness

But your love couldn't be bought

And now its really over

But never in my head

So my feelings are alive

But my relationship is dead

You never had glasses

But you can clearly see

That you were never truly in love with me