I Don't Want More Lyrics

I don't like thinking

It deludes my thoughts

Like Don Quijote reading

I'm going nuts

With every dream

And with every nightmare

My head fills with steam

And the lies come faster

I keep telling myself things that are not real

But I'm scared to ask and to share how I feel

I don't want to lose you 'cause I'm insecure

I'm a loser that loves too much and of that I'm sure

Maybe distractions will blind all my needs

Porn, women, games, social media, and pills

Buy useless shit that I will never use

Thing after thing that keeps hiding my truth

This verse is too long

I hate reflection

I just want unconditional affection

The more I wait the more my heart gets fickle

I think way too much therefore I am way to little, yeah

I don't want more

More of the dread

More of what life has in store

More of the mold in the bread

I'd rather stay hungry instead

Of this I cannot stand more

Stay underground like a mole

Wait there 'till I turn to mold

I really don't want to grow old

My story shall never be told

Stopping my life now

Just seems so easy

But people always prevent me from leaving

This shit is not really fair

Hostility in the air

You're lying you don't really care

I've got no more feelings to share

From your shit I'd like to be spared

I don't want more

More of the dread

More of what life has in store

More of the mold in the bread

I'd rather stay hungry instead

Of this I cannot stand more

Stay underground like a mole

Wait there 'till I turn to mold

I really don't want to grow old

My story shall never be told

I cannot hold in

The feelings I'm feeling

I'm like a zit

That'll blow and start bleeding

My ego is shattered

But that shit don't matter

If I tie my neck in a noose

And step of that fucking step ladder

All of the pain will be gone

This life ain't gonna restart

I can't sit down

And play a game

Or write a song

Or say I'm

I'm trapped in a cell

Happiness out of reach

I cannot swim

Yet I go to the beach

My heart is at war

With the things I love

And the people I love

And the places I'm at

I'd love to love love but I can't 'cause it breaks me

That shit holds me back so I can't be amazing

I think that school

Is very important

But it holds me back

And it takes my time

I'd like to go but

It's draining my mind

I'd wish to go but

My time is not mine

You know what?

I feel kind of tired

Imma close my eyes

And put out the fire

I'm going to hell

Give into desires

Keep on casting your spells

'Cause it's them that I'll buy into

I don't want more

More of the dread

More of what life has in store

More of the mold in the bread

I'd rather stay hungry instead

Of this I cannot stand more

Stay underground like a mole

Wait there 'till I turn to mold

I really don't want to grow old

My story shall never be told

Stopping my life now

Just seems so easy

But people always prevent me from leaving

This shit is not really fair

Hostility in the air

You're lying you don't really care

I've got no more feelings to share

From your shit I'd like to be spared

I don't want more

More of the dread

More of what life has in store

More of the mold in the bread

I'd rather stay hungry instead

Of this I cannot stand more

Stay underground like a mole

Wait there 'till I turn to mold

I really don't want to grow old

My story shall never be told

I cannot hold in

The feelings I'm feeling

I'm like a zit

That'll blow and start bleeding

My ego is shattered

But that shit don't matter

If I tie my neck in a noose

And step of that fucking step ladder

All of the pain will be gone

This life ain't gonna restart