IF ONLY Lyrics

"You're still young"

Said the lady walking bye

I don't know how that's advice

She said "live it as you like"

Plastic tongues

All the liars wait in line

It'll take a little time,

But it's easier to die

I'm so dumb

Cause I've been camped outside

Think I've waited here for years

And those years have passed me by

I cleaned out my ashtray

And those cigarettes

With your lipstick on 'em

I doused my bed with gasses

There's money in the mattress

Already lit the matches

I love you

If only you loved me too

I would write you letters

I wrote 'em all in pen

So the words wouldn't erase

I guess a lighter works instead

Your dad said "thanks for dinner, but don't come back again"

And since then

You stopped counting

The notches on your bedframe

One, maybe two nights

Love, maybe someday

Two, maybe three names

You scratched one out

And said you hated remembering

Taking shrooms twice a week

Every week

"It's for therapy"

I'm seeing things

More than I do usually

Mirages of love in a movie

You take off your clothes so slowly

Kiss your neck when you ridin' on me

Don't you wish it was real

When you're falling asleep?

Bite your tongue when you lovin' on me

Don't you wish it was real

When you're falling asleep?

I wish we met, but only in dreams

I cleaned out my ashtray

And those cigarettes

With your lipstick on 'em

I doused my bed with gasses

There's money in the mattress

Already lit the matches

I love you

If only you loved me too