If I Lose This Fight Lyrics

When did I stop making plans for the future

When did I just want it all to come sooner

I used to be so scared of death now I find it amusing

Dear mama there's spirits in my room

But I'm the one who let them in

And if I am to lose this fight

Just know I never gave up

And if I am to lose this fight

It was never my choice

And if I am to lose this fight

Just know there's no more pain

And I know everyone is in my corner

But I'm the only one inside that ring

I used to dream of getting older

Now that shit terrifies me

I apologize to my younger self

I was supposed to be his hero

Now I'm the one who really needs his help

Bring me back to zero

I'm trying I'm fighting but I'm so tired

I'm trying I'm fighting but I'm so tired

And if I am to lose this fight

Just know I never gave up

And if I am to lose this fight

It was never my choice

And if I am to lose this fight

Just know there's no more pain

Just know just know there's no more pain