the hurt and the healing Lyrics

I thought I would be so much more by 23

And if I met a teenage me

I wonder what she'd think

Would she yell and bite and scream about

All the things we could have been?

Or would she see the hurt and the healing?

And I hate myself some days

And I don't know how I ever saw more than mediocre in me

I cannot believe it's taken so much time and energy

Just to find me

How am I s'posed to also find my dreams?

I wanna be dumb while I'm still young

Swim every Sunday and be there for those I love

But time rolls on

With or without my songs

Bright young girl

Big brown eyes

You were born to bask in the spotlight

Young girls grow

Stem and thorn

Who was I, to think I could be more?

I live in the city now with my friends and the ringtails

I've been running since a child

But just for now I'm stable

And suddenly I'm still for long enough to see my face in the water

And I don't see the bright young girl my mother fought for

I wanna see myself in kinder, softer shades

But mainly I just blame myself and spit my cursed name

And I hate myself some days

And I don't know how I ever saw more than mediocre in me

Bright young girl

Big brown eyes

You were born to bask in the spotlight

Young girls grow

Stem and thorn

Who was I, to think I could be more?

I thought I would be so much more by 23

And if I met a teenage me

I wonder what she'd think

Would she yell and bite and scream about

All the things we could have been

Or would she see the hurt and the healing?

Bright young girl

Big brown eyes

You were born to bask in the spotlight

Young girls grow

Stem and thorn

Who was I, to think I could be more?