Vile Lyrics

Do you ever get lost in your negative thoughts

Wonder where they came from

Or what was the cause

Do you dwell upon mistakes

Succumb to the rot

By walking old avenues that you overshot

Well me

I

Shut my eyes and clench my fists

Before I slam my head against the wall to face the abyss

And all I see is red

Outlined in vengeful glints

To watch the mirror shatter

And the prism shift

Before it splits my head into a million pieces

And I spiral and spin

Here it comes again

Cataclysm looming within

Myself

I scream

And then

Descent

Pulled in two directions

Decay or repent

And my mindset

I deserve the torment

For every attempt

At any kind of progress

That augments with failure

And how it presents

My only options

Pain or death

It's vile

To be eaten alive by the drive of the cycle

Composed of compulsion

And vicious denial

I look for the line between obsession and trial

But all I find is it's justified

In the moment to lay down my life

To say my goodbyes

But It's not hard to surmise

I

Am a willing sacrifice

To failed endeavors

That haunt me forever

And taunt me

They want me to sever

The correlation with pressure

My god

Am I the cause and confessor

Tell me it's for naught

That I should stop

That I'll never have another shot

Although I believe in reflection

Calculation determines discretion

Final decisions that lead to convictions

On what I should do with ambition

Another page

From the book of detrition

I look closely at the composition

I guess it's always been there

The answer obscured

Hidden by the definition

To cure an affliction requires contrition

And the resolve to accept what is written