I'm Sorry ft. Momentous Lyrics

I'm sorry, but I gotta choose me

I gotta put myself first and try to plant these seeds

Reading an autopsy for my feelings as we speak

Been with snakes so much that I've learned to shed my skin

This is me trying to heal

Conceptualizing my insecurities on this beat

Smiling while they pray on my fall like varsity fees

I gotta kneel more for wisdom and life from the tree

I'm beginning to view the world for what it truly is

A hate-infested place, filled with envy and greed

My only sense of hope comes from the books I read

Contradicting as me and my dreams are playing hide-and-seek

Mama used to say "you can be who you wanna be"

Never really told me what it takes to be a King

Drowning in my thoughts, big enough to fill the sea

"The Way of the Superior Man" is at the core of how I think

I'm sorry, but I gotta choose me

I love this game, I live this game

There's a thousand other guys waiting in the wings who are obsessed with this game

Obsession's gonna beat talent every time

You got all the talent in the world, but are you obsessed

Eish, ngyaxolisa, but I gotta choose me

I've seen the worst from soldiers who were with me in the field

Fought together then they turn around and shoot to kill

Now they telling me "We going far", but really, who's "we"

Ngyaxolisa, but I gotta choose me

I have to cut you off if I really wanna succeed

Premonitions of my demise whenever I think

I've already had a peek of the casket waiting for me

Uh, this is me trying to heal

Would you even cope if you felt the way that I feel

Overthinking every misunderstanding I see

They will help you try to pick the lock while they hiding the key

So many times, I had to kneel

So many times, I contemplated death so I don't feel

So many times, I had to wear a smile against my will

And so many times I wish I could ask God for an appeal

Ngyaxolisa

My biggest fear is retiring broke

Ngife ngingena fokol even though I always label myself as an artist of note

Heee, kuba yindvodza akukho lula and ndvodza muntu uyakhula

Impandla hlezi itinika mandla, geen nyuku geen dladla

Tintsanga takho tiphumelele, some of them they be living i-soft life le boma suburbs

Living a better life got a kid and a wife, wena usele udlobeselesele

Likhona likhona, mathuba akhona

Yekela likhona noku khononda ukhone kutentela

Nowadays lodla indlala uyatenta

Wena uyatenta labanye badla ma tender

Call me i-sell out mei outy angisibhayi

Now vision will monitor my actions

I'm on a quest for financial evolution, hence I'm crafting resolutions

Not for a new year but for likusasa lekufanele lichakate tsotsi

Ungabese uyatingabata, invest on payday

Don't get me wrong mei outy, I am still real

But I'm keeping it real to myself this time around

Ngoba bantu abakhatsalelwa kuthenjwa, kugcwele tigubhu tika poison langaphandle

I'm done complaining le gravy train ngiyayi gova

Noma kunesi ghada nobhova, ngenkani ngiyayi reya

Yemagenge besisonkhe but now usually nginokushaya isilolo

Heading for a better tomorrow, kufuneka isjwevo clever

They say knowledge is key, but I say money is power forever