Reconnected Lyrics

As I'm writing this my throat is burning

It's been concerning

But worry is the reason that I struggle as person

In a hurry I've been leaving just to lay awake

For certain there's damage to my nerves

I've grown accustomed to it hurting

I don't think I ever came to terms with my fathers passing

And now the car I drive is close to crashing

Wake up in the night gasping

Is he here with me?

Or do I just appear be

Relaxed cause I'm laughing like its going out of fashion

Though I do that to hide from the truth

Because If everything is funny it reminds me of youth

Something that I'll never feel again

Maybe that's the reason I can't heal and mend

I'm piecing things together with the hope that it doesn't end

Cause I experienced death

And lately that's why I've been terrified of wasting my breath

Man that psilocybin ain't a joke

Lived a couple life times

Until it all went up in smoke

It opened up my eyes just to drag my lows

Down to the depths of hell

And finally I found a woman who could treat me well

The others offered something but they couldn't reach the peak and fell

Because sex is all I cared for

I'll handle the bid

Fourteen years old

I took off my lid

Scrambled my brain

And did what I did

Yeah she took advantage

Went from a kid

To some scared form

Whose vision grew impaired

Torn from lover to lover

By the time they really trusted Me

It's on to another

But now the woman that I call a home is rearranging all that

Every single ex could call and wouldn't get a call back

I'm known to jump and fall flat

But now I really land on my feet

There's a world that I want us to meet

It's gonna take time

Correcting the damage that we've ingested

I thought I'd never break free

But now I stand corrected

The guilt and thoughts of suicide

Were hidden and protected

Until I came to find that me and life were friends that reconnected in the best way

I don't care for what the stress say