vista ft. Kirko Lyrics

October 8, 2021

There comes a time in a person's life

When they realize the fleeting glimpse, of why we as human beings exist in this world

This one is mine

I cannot say that the entirety of my existence is absolute

And that I am cognizant of everything

I know nothing

My ego has been in the driver's seat for so long

And I've sat shotgun, awaiting my next destination

It pains me to say I've grown bitter overtime

Apathetic even, overly competitive and comparative

And downright insensitive and selfish to those around me

But life has a funny way of painting things

Events, and people you encounter in specific areas and times in our life

But my time as a young boy growing up with my family, reinforced by vast wealth

Indulgence, and excessive comfort

The Bakunawa family and "Catolos" will be instrumental to my growth and my life for as long as I live

But I am comfortable and happy to say that there is no longer a need for me to return to the nest

Catolos was where I live for my life for other people

I was too afraid to be genuine.

I was constantly living in approval of others at the expense of my peace and sanity

Why did I care so much about what people thought of me?

Why?

The pursuit for approval, me seeking others' validation

By pouring so much of my attention towards them is a search for security inside the field of uncertainty

Being in the uncertain places can be terrifying, it can make us feel insecure

So the search for approval is a void of the past conditioning

It is an idea of the self that we're familiar with but we've outgrown

Development is scary

It requires change

A lot of it

You battle with your inherent nature as a child

To the attachment, to the known

But the known is your past

The past is nothing other than the prison of past conditioning

There is no evolution in that

Aboslutely none at all

Where there is no evolution

There is entropy, stagnation, and decay

Embrace the unknown

Old but a newborn

Speak peace in my new form

Each seek this sweet peace

Place of the cool calm

Soul getting too strong

Day of the new dawn

Day of a new dawn

Place of the cool calm

Cuts from the quick thorn

Lights are effervescent

Sparks of the new spawn

Place of the cool calm

Place of the cool calm

Place of the cool calm

Pace, ways, waves

All from the crude storm

Sapiens

Bravo bravo, a round of applause and a pat on the back

Oh really baby maybe they go

We want more, encore, palm with the mic drops, billowing crop tops

Oh really baby maybe they go

Download, download, no control in a track

Matter fact I'm relaxed despite my frequent asthma attacks

I got my world on my back and my shoulders

I ought to paint the town red and the sky crimson

I'm sick of these fickle decisions

Young man on a mission

Make these motherfuckers nose bleed

No G, we don't trust the police

Hey siri, clearly lucky I never OD'd

Don't coax or control me

Free my mind from myself

And what's mine watch my health

And the size of my belt

Well be kind, I need help

Say less, show and tell

I'm Breaking the chains of my mental prisons

Bane of my existence

Coexisting, I keep family, strangers, and people within arm's length

And I love them from a distance

What the fuck is caution?

Often I get lost in my own thoughts it's exhausting

I'm just cyclically lost in revolving knee-deep in a forest

Well, to be honest, it feels just like a game that you play

You evolve but you can never pause it

I need a little space to breathe

Bravo bravo, a round of applause and a pat on the back

Oh really baby maybe they go

We want more, encore, palm with the mic drops, billowing crop tops

Oh really baby maybe they go

Download, download, no control in a track

Matter fact I'm relaxed despite my frequent asthma attacks

I got my world on my back and my shoulders

It ain't over 'til the fat lady sings

Ignorance is bliss, kick a bad habit

A planet for the sake of my kin

Well hello run forest, run like the wind

Nose dive to the torrent

Am I barking up the wrong tree?

Never close your eyes to horrors

Stay curious as explorers and run for the hills

Wash your bloody hands from your sins

I vacation to my daydreams

Just in case I'm mistaken

I'm still exercising my patience

And holding space, anxiety pacing

Dealt with overdue difficult conversations

guess confrontation ain't nothing new to me

I say this troubled by the storm under the basement

By the skin of my teeth, I digress guess this is my payment

I remember getting scolded as a child reminiscent of eulogies

My scars hang around my neck, I swear I wear it with pride like jewelry

I guess owe my dad an explanation

Contrary to popular belief, you see really its great relief

Really, I watch the trees, really they fall and dance with the leaves

It's ludicrous, I'm proven a nuisance to my relatives due to my new address

I know my endorphins, I get caught swimming in my lies

Dancing with the dolphins

Will I make my pop proud?

Almost had my heart stop

Never really thought I'd make it back in one piece

But here I live longer to tell my life story

But I guess God watched

Can I smoke your pot, maybe hotbox?

Hold up maybe never mind

I told myself I'd stay sober until

I might just let you read my private diary

Kept my head down for years after the accident

Living in the shadows of my own ignominy

All my homies be asking me

What you doing? how you feel? what you need?

Truth be told it was, unfathomable

I coped with drugs, cigarettes, and bottles of alcohol

What would you say if you was

Dealt with saving two lives

Yours and another

I fought tooth and nail

Some things I am not proud of

It was hard to say or explain what I've seen

This is dedicated

To the loving memory of Carl

End of a chapter

It's time for me to close the book

Place of the cool calm

Place of the cool calm

Place of the cool calm

Place of the cool calm

Place of the cool calm

Place of the cool calm

Pace, ways, waves

All from the crude storm

Sapiens