what if? Lyrics

Lately I've been living in my head

Some days it's hard to get up out of bed

My family be worried bout my health

I can't blame em' cause I'm nervous for myself

What if I run out of breathe?

What if I run out of meds?

What if I told you I'm not suicidal but sometimes I feel like I'm dead?

I haven't been feeling alive, look at the pain in my eyes

Everyone said imma be just fine

But what if I'm not?

What if I die?

What if I never get the chance to say goodbye?

But what if I fought and never look back?

And murdered all these demons following me from my past

I know I'm gon see better days

I ain't tryna manifest my pain

Gotta keep going, I got so much to lose but more to gain

Gotta keep showing em' I'm a young rich boy from the "H"

From the east side to L.A

Baby I'm a real one ain't no bitch in my DNA

When I get a million I'll split it with my family

It's no better feeling than seeing a smile on their face

Tryna make sure we all paid, fuck the fame

But what if I fuck up again?

What if I end up giving in?

What if these demons win?

What if the voice inside of my head keep on sending threats?

I keep telling myself ima make it til the end

But what if I'm not?

What if I die?

What if I never get the chance to say goodbye?

But what if I fought and never look back?

And murdered all these demons following me from my past

I'm stronger than the devil is

He tryna bring me down but I ain't having it

Anxiety inside of me, gotta find a way to manage it

I said "momma I'm trying to beat the battle I've been in"

Gotta make sure she know that ima win

Uh-uh, uh-uh

I don't wanna die too young

Uh-uh, uh-uh

I gotta survive so one day I'll meet my son

But what if I'm not?

What if I die?

What if I never get the chance to say goodbye?

But what if I fought and never look back?

And murdered all these demons following me from my past