I apologise but NOT really Lyrics

Up to the heavens departures easy Jet

Wonder when I'm gone if they'll Ever ask when they'll see me next

Cut from the blade who's gonna Clean the mess

Bed covers covered in stains Coloured a peachy red

Murder obsession it's not from PMS

Maybe ASD but the a should be Inbetween the S

Questioned my presence it's not For me but them

I have a guilty conscience that's Telling me not to leave again but

I know that they never would do the same for me

Know that I have changed but These people ain't gonna change For me

They ain't raising that gun and Taking that aim for me

Shooting all this shit in my brain And causing that pain for me

And I got these bullets lodged up In my chest

She has the cheek to lay up on it While she leaves me here for dead

She really watched the barrel spin And saw my soul rip as it teared

So I told her that au revoir and she Told me excuse your French

Je ne sais pas you see my palm it Started bleeding

Lost my spiritually ain't nothing to Believe in

Like Jesus on the cross I take a loss For winning heavens cause the Christian's in my life have been disguised they're really demons

Thought I was dreaming but my night turned to a nightmare

I smoke a toke of weed and take a flight and then I hide there

Cause maybe if I leave I'll live I life That change my mind set

Investing in vacation houses like I Bid a time share

So why do I dare to struggle when There's worse things

There's people living shit lives and Here I hear the birds sing

The songs that they are chirping Aren't really meant for me yes to You they might not be peak but to Me they're really disturbing

So I apologise for thinking of the worst things

Yes I apologise you really had me hurting

But I'm not sorry cause it's better I'm deserving

The only thing I'm sorry for is Being the bigger person

Thought she was a mermaid but Really she was a siren

Lead me into waters I'm drowning Like I'm a pirate

She told me ride the wave now She's causing a ship wreck

It's rip reckz as she watches me die in silence

But I'm a fighter there ain't no rest For the wicked

Her friends always policing me Cause they guess that I did it

They thought she was hero but Honestly she's a villain

And the sooner that they're done is The sooner that I'll be finished

No more proving myself it's only Choosing myself I'll put my energy In choosing my wealth

The growing stacks that fill the piggy bank under my shelf because I work hard and gard I'm doing it well

I'm due for the bell the one that means to open door

I'm opening doors to pools and Whores and whips no corsa

Enemies will turn in to friends I'm Dipping of course a

Don't you come and try to act like It's different of course

I'm doing good so now they want

What I'm giving of course

I'm not giving it to you or you

I'll keep my bens while you stay in Your two by two

No making amends they know my Name but who are you?

A team of excellence while you Stay in your loser crew

You should've kept your eyes open Cause when you snooze you lose And when your finally awake your Feeling too confused

You miss a lot of commotion when that's the move you chose

I'm always staying wide awake

I'm on a different route

I've been different but now they Wanna be different too

The bum lickers are bum niggas

Never been surrounded by bum bitches

If they're bums I'm raising my gun bitches

They try to take me down but I stay at number one bitches

I cannot stress enough I don't just do this for fun bitches

For most id say im trash but yes I'm loyal to some bitches

Unless I fall in love don't be expecting no hugs bitches

So please keep your distance most Times relationships entertainment

But don't act like I'm wrong

I'm still young although I am aging

I'm focused on myself and my Wealth during these stages

You might think that I'm evil but these steps gotta be taken

I won't apologise for wanting to be famous

Cause I want everyone to know just what my name is

My life is difficult it almost made me aimless

So I need you all to listen cause the pain is where the gain is