Life is Hopeless (Altered Ending) Lyrics

Why is life better when I go to sleep

Why does it feel like cancer in my head

Yo, I wake up and it feels like i'm dead

I feel like I'm drowning in Challenger Deep

Life is hopeless

I can't find happiness anymore

When I think I'm at my peak, I fall back down to the floor

I look at myself and I see failure and weakness

Look at the pain in my face, man

I'm so worthless

I can't go through the day without breaking down

I try to crack a smile, but my mood just beats me down

I be breathing heavily and I have these palpitations

I can barely think straight and I lose my concentration

I'm losing a battle against myself

I go to bed wishing for a permanent asleep

But before I go to sleep, I just start to weep

Cause there's no need to go to heaven, man

I'm already in hell

Life is hopeless

What did I ever do to deserve this

Smile on my face while I'm mentally suffering

People try to be comforting, but no chance of recovering

If you wanna talk, then you can always come and talk to me

Who's actually gonna listen

It's not gonna make a difference

A whole lifetime of pain has been accumulating

Building up, building up

It's building up that tension

Too many inconveniences in life, it's so overwhelming

It's hard to talk about it cause people say I'm just looking for attention

I started turning to alcohol to numb the pain

Don't care if ethanol's bad for me

It'll mellow my brain

I'm considering cutting myself

Yeah you can call me crazy

It's gotten to the point where I don't think about my safety

Life is hopeless and I know that nobody cares

I'm so broken that there's no way I can be repaired

I have these dark thoughts and, no lie, I'm very scared

Got so many visions of my death, but I think I'm prepared

I can't stand feeling all this pain within me

I can't stand it

What did I ever do to deserve this

Come on

I can't do this

I don't wanna live like this

I have to lie and say that I'm fine

I wanna get better, man. I'm tryin'

But there's no reason in living

I wanna put and end to my suffering

Everyday I just brake down and cry

Come on! Just kill me, I JUST WANNA DIE

THIS IS IT

LET'S MAKE IT A REALITY RIGHT NOW

Y'ALL GOT TEN SECONDS

Give me one reason why I shouldn't end it all right now

One reason why I shouldn't dig my throat out

One reason why I shouldn't cut my vocal chords so I can't scream anymore

My presence is not even important anyways

There will be no difference if I live or die

Y'all are running out of time

Give me one reason

GIVE ME ONE REASON

GIVE ME ONE REASON

AAAH

I had no choice

I had to do it

There was no way in hell I was going to suffer yet another day

No way I was gonna spend another day of feeling more and more pain within me

I was down

I needed help

I publicly cried for help

But where were you

Where were you when I needed you the most

I fought such a long long battle against myself

Life was beating me down and still beat me when I was on the ground helpless

But then finally gave up

There was simply no point in my life

I'm just a pointless waste of space with no future

There was just no place for me in this world

You guys go

Go ahead and live your lives

It's not like you'll remember me anyways

I'll either be rotting six feet underground or in ashes

Life is hopeless