alive Lyrics

I've been in my head for ages

I just wanna die

No dreams or nightmares when I close my eyes

I'm don't wanna be here

I'm just tryna survive

I just want to wake up and feel like some time went by

Am I alive?

Don't know if I'm alive

Stuck inside the ether

Of an endless night

I think I'm alive

But I don't know why

I don't know why-y-y-y-y

But something ain't right

Every time I look up at the ice cold pale blue sky

I can feel a shiver running down my spine

Time is running by me, out of control most of the time

I never figured out to what extent I derealize

Am I alive?

Don't care if I'm alive

I don't know where I'm headed

Or if I will arrive

I think I'm alive

But I don't know why

I don't know why-y-y-y-y

But I'm terrified