healing hurts Lyrics

I expected the exhaustion

And the days i couldn't get outta bed

I expected the prescriptions

And the pain I felt in my head

I thought slowly I'd start feeling better

I'd stitch my life back together

One day at a time

In one long straight line

But healing fucking hurts sometimes

I wish I would've known

I probably would've closed my eyes

Waited till it was all over

It gets better till it just gets worse

A full time job isn't this much work

I know that I'll survive but

Healing fucking hurts sometimes

I expected

For a few weeks

I might not feel quite like myself

I expected

Someone to tell me

Some explanation for what I felt

But now it's been more than a year and

I still don't have any clear cut answers

And askin just feels like slippin backwards

Yeah healing fucking hurts sometimes

I wish I would've known

I probably should've closed my eyes

Waited till it was all over

Yeah it gets better till it just gets worse

A full time job isn't this much work

I'll know that I'll survive but

Healing fucking hurts sometimes

Ohhh, ohhh, ohhh

No one told me

It would get this lonely, I

Spent 6 months piecing back together

Who I was, will it be forever

So jaded

Done with being patient, I'm

Sick of hearing that I'll be fine

Cuz healing fucking hurts sometimes

I wish I would've known

And someone told me to close my eyes

Wait until it was all over

Yeah it gets better till it just gets worse

A full time job isn't this much work

I know that I survived but

Healing fucking hurts sometimes