afterthought Lyrics

Breathe out, breathe in

Let all the oxygen in your chest

I can't remember the last time I could rest

Watching you sleep

Wondering who's the man in your dreams

Is he taller? Is he blonde?

He doesn't have a cooler mom

And there's no way he treats you better

Look at my handwritten letters

And then a cloud begins to fester

I think you think of me as lesser

Than the one who taught you how

To feel comfortable sneaking around

In your old Ford SUV

A car I never got to see

Is he the reason

I'm having such a troubled time believing

You even want me here

'Cuz you tell me all the time it makes no difference

Kept your distance

You wrote my Christmas card on the train

And I bet you tried not to write his name

Afterthought

The shoulder's could but the coffee's hot

Another morning, something's wrong

I take my pills and carry on

And then I wonder what I'm fighting

All the ice cubes I've been biting

I don't even serve a purpose

I won't let you tell me I'm worthless

If I'm not the one for you

Then get the fuck out of my bedroom

I went to you six times that week

But I think this time you can leave

Is he the reason

I'm having such a troubled time believing

You even want me here

'Cuz you tell me all the time it makes no difference

You come home at 4 am

I smell tobacco on your hands

I haven't got any sleep

My empty room was haunting me

I lay your ghost down on our bed

I smell the liquor on your breath

I turn around and start to cry

You sound annoyed when you ask why

You're in a mood I'm in my head

But we both choose to fight instead

We talk in circles all night long

Then go to bed like nothing's wrong

But if nothing is wrong then what's with the turmoil

Who's the revolver and who gets the recoil

Bullets are flying we're caught in the fire

When you say you love me you sound like a liar

Is he the reason

I'm having such a troubled time believing

You even want me here

'Cuz you tell me all the time it makes no difference

Yeah, I tell you all the time but you don't listen

Yeah, you sit there and you think that I don't listen