Cold Lyrics

I really wish I was cold

I wish I said what I wanted when I want, but I don't

I wish that I was a bitch

But, I've been in school for psychology since I was a kid

I'm used to pleasing everybody else

Nobody's hurting if I hurt myself

Oh I wish it wasn't easy

When I say I'm happy they believe me

I'm just dancing around all of the things I want to say

I should just say them but I don't wanna today

Cuz I won't know what to do

When I'm making you cry

But if I'm being honest

I'm really bad at being honest

I know I have to say it

But I know I won't unless I'm wasted

I would rather fantasize about the end of my life

Instead of building up the courage just to tell you goodbye

If I'm being honest

I have to tell you I don't want this

I'm really good at being

Anything you want me to be

I can switch it up if you don't like what you see

Oh I wish I wasn't like this

But I want you to know I'm really trying

But I'm still dancing around all of the things I want to say

I should just say them but I don't wanna today

Cuz I won't know what to do

When I'm making you cry

But if I'm being honest

I'm really bad at being honest

I know I have to say it

But I know I won't unless I'm wasted

I would rather fantasize about the end of my life

Instead of building up the courage just to tell you goodbye

If I'm being honest

I have to tell you I don't want this

I'm really good at being

Anything you want me to be

(I can't focus)

I'm just what I want you to see

(I don't want this)

Anything you want me to be

(I can't focus)

I'm just what I want you to see

(I don't want this)