kinda don't wanna exist Lyrics

Kinda don't want to exist

But I'll deal with it

Put on my makeup

Make it look like I'm on top of shit

Breaking at the seams but no one seems to notice me

Gotten way too good at acting like I'm over it

Kinda don't want to exist

But it's not that bad

I'm just a little bit dramatic

Get it from my dad

And he would tell you I've been like this since I was a child

Anyway, it will work out it always does somehow

I just don't know how to regulate my emotions

Empty or spilling over

(That's all I know)

Don't want to exist

I'm just winging it

Thought by now I would've found a way to deal with this

But I'm stuck on autopilot,

My life's on repeat

Swear a year ago feels like it happened just last week

Really don't want to exist

But is that so bad?

Would anybody even notice if I weren't around?

It's not like I want to die

I'm just thinking out loud

I wish everyone would stop asking if I'm alright

(Ugh)

I just don't know how to regulate my emotions

Empty or spilling over

(That's all I know)

I just don't know how to

Stop these thoughts from coming

Maybe I'm the problem

(Don't want to know)

I'm sorry

(I see you)

(You think you're funny?)

Sometimes I wonder if I even want to be okay

Is that okay?