Swell ft. Yung Han & Kingsford Lyrics

I've been trying to get back on my feet

Practice smiling in the mirror whitening strips on my teeth

Imma keep it hundred with you

I can be a little cheap

So take that hundred, pocket fifty

You ain't got see the real me so please

Oh Please

You ain't got to ask about my day

I'll say the same things like I'm okay or doing great

'Cause I don't really want to bother you with my array of feelings

Either way

I'll be dealing with them my own way

'Cause I'm okay

I'm just trying to find my peace

But you can take a peek, have a piece

Rather help with your problems than helping me

Honestly I find it way more comfortable

Offering my attention than spending a single second on personal things

And I could blame it on the patriarchy

Toxic masculinity, media, or lack of therapy

But I know facts are facts

Man it's easy to see

The root of all my problems always starts with me

I can't help

I can't help

Myself

If I

Don't want help

I've been well

I don't need

Your help

Yeah

I need help

I can't help

I can't help

Myself

If I

Don't want help

I've been well

I don't need

Your help

Yeah

I need help

I need help but not really

The paradox of my feelings

Humble floors with tall ceilings

Leaking tank but still fill it

Fishing for more but caught illness

If life got deeper meaning then what am I even chasing

To live and die for self is only temporary vacation

If higher purpose starts with deciding how it ends

If eternity's at stake would I keep playing pretend?

We all act like tomorrow is promised

Speak into existence what you may

But the cards ain't in my wallet

If I'm honest only reason that I have what I have

Whether good whether bad

Is accomplishing HIS task

'Cause the truth can't be truth if I get to pick and choose it

I could never save myself 'cause the devil is the loser

I could never save myself I could never save myself

What I'm really tryna say is I need help…

I can't help

I can't help

Myself

If I

Don't want help

I've been well

I don't need

Your help

Yeah

I need help

I can't help

I can't help

Myself

If I

Don't want help

I've been well

I don't need

Your help

Yeah

I need help