Aptos Lyrics

I've been away from the ocean for too long

Longing for waves and sweet smell of salt

I'd go back for a day, but no one there knows me now

I ran from the coast at the first chance I got

I was plagued with regret and the memories of Aptos

After I left, I found myself looking back

Sometimes you're faced with a foregone conclusion

A life in a cage you don't know what to do with

Hand over the keys, there's no time for slowing down

My body's a muscle I'm trying to fit in

I hate my broad shoulders, my hair, and my chin

I want to be well, or maybe just see myself

But I know that

It's not a wish upon the out of state, driving through the palisades

I wore that

Blue tie like a noose holding everything

Fragily and keeping me in place

Tired of assholes that fuck it all up

I was raised by the Antlers and crappy punk rock

I thought it was good, but maybe it wasn't so great

So fuck you and half-assed attempts at a family

They're tired and bored, I never needed one anyway

I've seen it before; I know how this movie ends

And I hope that

It's not a wish upon the out of state, driving through the palisades

I wore that

Blue tie like a noose holding everything

Fragily and keeping me in place

Time waits for the empty

Oh to save our souls

I'm not growing old

Well don't you look at me that way

I'm alive with a reason calling me to

And don't you ever lose my name

It's all mine so I keep it calling me the same

My body's a muscle I'm trying to fit in

I hate my own skin and this human condition

I want to be well and maybe just see myself

But I know that

It's not a wish upon the out of state, driving through the palisades

I wore that

Blue tie like a noose holding up everything

And keeping me in place

Time waits for the empty

Oh to save our souls

I'm not growing old

And I've been busy writing

All the same old songs

Tell them I've seen it all

Time waits for the empty

Oh to save our souls

I'm not growing old

And I've been busy writing

All the same old songs

Tell them I've seen it all

But I know that

It's not a wish upon the out of state, driving through the palisades

I wore that

Blue tie like a noose holding up everything

And keeping me in place