coping mechanisms Lyrics

I missed you before I let you go and that's just it

Will I ever find what I found again or was that it

Did you try to tell me first or did you hold it in

If I cared less, tried to care less

Find my footing all in the dark

If I cared less, be more careless

Turn it off and put it in park

I think fools have all the fun

Not balancing beams or falling undone

Coping mechanisms I try on

Try to fill back the hole in my chest

Tell mama I'm doing my best not coming undone

Right now I can't see a place where all this suddenly makes sense

Where I'm happier again we get to finally past tense

It bubbles under my skin threatening to boil over and pour

Over the life that I lead that I love but the love that I wanted always was yours

If I cared less, tried to care less

Find my footing all in the dark

If I cared less, be more careless

Turn it off and put it in park

I think fools have all the fun

Not balancing beams and falling undone

Coping mechanisms I try on

Try to fill back the hole in my chest

Tell mama that this is my best at not coming undone