Emergency Room Lyrics

The hospital smells like death

I got it's scent inside my chest

Red rings around my wrist

Inner voice is reassuring

In a morbid kind of way

If I bleed out fast enough

I wouldn't have to deal with this

I'm thinking about how I got here

Cause everything is a mess

I'm thinking about childhood trauma

My constant source of stress

I'm thinking about how I always say yes

To the things I don't enjoy

I'm thinking about the things that were said

Constantly repeating in my head

I'm thinking about the news on the internet

And how I just can't disconnect

I'm locked in a room with you

Watching shitty tv from our youth

Waiting for the nurse to come back

The one who said they liked my glasses

To tell me how they're gonna help

I'm starting to think for the first time

Maybe I don't want to die

I'm thinking about the friends I miss

And how they would feel about this

I'm thinking about why I can't feel love

When it's directed towards me

I'm thinking about my family

To whom I never open up

I'm thinking about the things that I love

Flowers and games on the internet

I'm thinking I'm gonna do something for me

Gonna wake up the sun again and tell myself I love them