To My Family... Lyrics

Aye, back up at it like I hadn't had it

Don't keep too many friends cause the rest is back-stabbing bastards

Too many fucking hazards can't look straight gotta keep looking backwards

I'm afraid of intentions I cannot see clearly

I said I'm not worth it I mean that sincerely to my loved ones, go on be great

You can't climb a ladder with these ankle weights, don't like to ask for money

Everybody gotta work for money I am not a bill

Y'all the reason that I want these bills

And the ones that hurt me is why I'm on these pills

But I'm still asking homie for some $40, ask another for a drive

I tried to call up my grandpa but I forgot that he floats in the sky, aww dam

What the fuck?, they finna ask why I cover up, under up all of my covers bruh

This the start you better buckle up, I don't love everyone with my last name

I choose my fam I keep it that way, so you don't give a fuck about my pain?

I'll let it burn like my ashtray, but if I'm the one hurting others?

Cause see I hurt my mother, hurt my sister, hurt my brothers

Hurt my aunts and all my uncles, then I hurt my cousins I should leave right?

I don't know just tryna be real with the shit I throw

And the shit I'm writing and the shit I wrote

I think the truth is that I'm sorry

I'm fucking sorry aiight

I'm sorry I've been a shitty fucking friend and shitty fucking son

And a shitty brother and a shitty nephew and a shitty cousin

I I I I I I've literally like I I I've never been there when I should've been

And I've been sitting here wasting everybody's fucking time and I'm sorry

I'm sorry to my fucking father bro that I couldn't be better than you

I'm sorry to my fucking grandfather bro that everything I fucking promised you

Everything I fucking promised you I couldn't get it done bro

And you fucking died with me being a bum you died with me being a fucking bum

bro I'm a fucking bum but I'm trying and I keep trying but it's not enough

It's not enough bro and I keep hurting people in my fucking path every fucking day

I should've been there I should've been there then and I

But I shouldn't be there now I don't deserve you, I don't deserve any of y'all

I don't deserve any of it, any love, I don't deserve it that's how I'm feeling, fuck