I Was Lying Lyrics

I wish I could reconcile, cause deep inside I'm dying So I put on a smile, and I pretend I'm fine

I'm just another screw up, baby don't waste your time I told you it'd be different, but we knew I was lying

Yeah, we knew I was lying, oh, we knew I was lying

I'm just another screw up, baby don't waste your time I told you we'd be different, but we knew I was lying

Yeah, we knew I was lying

Im from a small place, but got big dreams Idolizing people on the big screen

Left home when I was like 15, I ain't never think my mom would get clean

Yeah, the shit seem way better when you on the outside looking in, don't it

More money, bring more problems Can't trust family, your friends phony, that's real

Devil been testing me still, pursuing my destiny And I still pray, multiple times of the day

But I am so far from heavenly, I got so much hate in my heart

The thoughts in my brain are too dark, Some of these dudes who claiming they with you

Are really against you and you are they mark

Let me tell you, loyalty is rare Ain't nobody tell you life is gon' be fair

Can depend on one person, but one person That's the person you see in the mirror

but tell em beware

Because you are your own worst enemy Something an OG said to me

I took the wrong road so long I just hope that you know that I'm gone if you're giving me time

I wish I could reconcile, cause deep inside I'm dying

So I put on a smile, and I pretend I'm fine

I'm just another screw up, baby don't waste your time

I told you it'd be different, but we knew I was lying

Yeah, we knew I was lying

Oh, we knew I was lying

I'm just another screw up, baby don't waste your time

I told you we'd be different, but we knew I was lying

Yeah, we knew I was lying

I'm learning more every day of what life is I don't wanna be the bad guy, I'm just like this

Yeah, family reunions was never invited Believe me, when no one believed in me, I did

We've been misguided, environment filthy, Tryna get up out of this life before it kill me

Laying low, over three weeks sober, that's an accomplishment

But hell, y'all don't feel me, I used to tell anyone that would listen that

I'ma be rich and yeah, I'ma be famous lot of setbacks in my past can't change it

Playing with somebody's heart, that's dangerous

People tell me I'm chosen, how the hell when I'm broken

My heart is so frozen, never know what tomorrow is holding

I know that I'm lonely, I can only count on me

My trust has been stolen, leaving no matter which way that I'm going

Put on a smile, but live with regrets Put on a shine, no one to impress

All of this time, I pretend I'm fine, I'm manic depressed

Bartender, won't you pour me another one

It's the middle of the night and it's raining outside

I thought that last one would've made me forget

That I done so much wrong in my life, I can never make it alright

I wish I could reconcile, cause deep inside I'm dying

So I put on a smile, and I pretend I'm fine

I'm just another screw up, baby don't waste your time

I told you it'd be different, but we knew I was lying

yea, We knew I was lying

ohhh, We knew I was lying

I'm just another screw up, baby don't waste your time

I told you it'd be different, but we knew I was lying

We knew I was lying